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Monday, August 31, 2009

happy anniversary!

HAPPY MERDEKA TO ALL!!!

im proud to be malaysian... (SIYUS)

erm erm ... actually beside to wishing all of the bloggers out there Happy Independence Day (31.08.1957)

i also wanna give big hug and huge wishes to my parents (mom and dad) .. happy anniversary!! (31.08.1975)


love you guys a lots alots alots and alots!!!! MMUuaHHHsssX!!!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Berita minggu

Ritok hari ke 9 dh kita posa ow.. Sik berasa dh.. Sik lamak gk raya (alu ingt raya) hehe, well, time raya jaklah salunya ku dpt nk jumpa kwn2 ku bha. Nendak masing2 dh bz nektok, cmua ngembk hal dikpun. Ada yg keja, ada yg gago gilak ngn gerek smpy kwn dilupak. Not to say anythg lar, tp, pandey2 gv time ow, lamak tok ssh sng, ngn kwn juak, mun gerek ya mena eberiting ko'pom bgs, sik juak kesah. Tok msh ada keluh kesah sia sitok.

dah, bukan ya yg nk dcta, nk cita, sik lamak gik merdeka ow.. Esoklah. Kira countdown malam toklah kan. Tokrang apa plan tek?
Me? Maybe nothing lar, dok umah jak, kawan? Hmm... I don't know actually what happen to us.
Well, mcm dpadah di atas tek nak? Hehe

cukuplah ya jak, sikmok sedih2 ehs..
Ptg tadik, dah atg boring ku dok umah, memandangkan keta ku usak, ku minjam keta maklah tadik. G demak, g meli ayam panggang ngan satay panggang. Ngembak anak buah ku juak, tedah nga sidak kenak dok d umah jk sekda plah pa.. Erm.. Nkkua malam tok? Asanya sik kot. Mun xoxo mbk kua pun, mbk ilek d umah jklah ngn famili. Nangga movie d umah.. Jimat kos ow??

Salam...

Friday, August 28, 2009

Cerita ceritu hari dulu-dulu

ritok dah ari sabtu dah ..senin lak merdeka!(dh merdeka ka kita? Minda masyarakat belom asanya) kira lamak lah juak sekda post pjg tok, sik tauk lok apa nak di post tok sebenarnya plus gago ngn keja jak lamak2 tok.. erm..
oh, cita hal wallet ngn henfon ria jak owh... ngee...

ok.. 1st of all, wallet ya datang dr my xoxo, sikdalah mahal ne wallet ya sbnrnya, murah jer, tp i like the design, unik and sekda gk yg design seumpamanya.. cewah, kiut pun ada, sekali imbas mcm classy pun ada (in person lah, mun tga lam gambar cam nothing) hehehe... plus nya kain baldu. bezz~ heheh.. thanx again dear... :D
i really like that wallet since the 1st time i saw it (fyi, i didnt get it instantly)... that time, xoxo and me jalan2 rah kuching fest ya for the 1st time, just, jalan2 jaklah, nothing much juak nk d tga sia, nga henpon csl, food stall everywhere, balloons, broadband booth, etc... then we go to this stall (cute stall) thats the name, byk brg2 yg bez... patong watsoeva, then my eyes caught on this wallet. heh.. mcm bez... siyus... mmg i cant get my mind of that wallet. but..erm.. nvm...
2nd time pegi kch fest cause i wanna met my old friends there, lamak dah sik nemu, then we made a plan to met each other there since she's going there with her other friends.
the third time xoxo and me go there, he was seeing some friends and buying foods from pandan delight while i cuci mata here and there....
(hehe)
then bila balik, we all lepak kat rumah jap, he's playing with the kids, my mum asked him to buy sotong bla bla bla... then bila dia nak balik, he just give me that wallet and smile ... "just a lil gift" he said

*nice* hati bunga2 hehe

ok, 2ndly, past few days, im going out to, nowhere specific, just wanna hang and chill out, then terserempak lah with my old friend dri uni dulu. Chit chat chit chat... We all g lepak kat mcd airport (coz diaorg pun nk blk gak ke negara msg2)..
they consist of nigerian, indonesian, and china. Lama tak jumpa kan, chit chat chit chat smpi tak ingt dunia. Then they have to go cause 'perempuan cantik' dlm speaker dh memanggil2. Bila nk jalan g departure hall tu we all still talking nonstop.

Nigerian : ko ptt dtg pegi nigeria, kelak aku mbak ko kelabing
(u should come to nigeria, i'll take u for a walk)

me : oh..boleh juaklah, aku suka jk.lamak juak dh aku sik kelabing tok. Bez x cnun?
(oh..sure, i love to visit u there sometimes. Is it nice?)

nigerian: paloi ko nk? Ingt tmpt ko sarawak tok jak kacak ka?
(of course! Its nothing like sarawak but it has its own identity)

me:oklah, lak ku pegi mun da masa.ku bz bha
(ok, i'll go when i have the time and money)

China : ko xm0k g agak aku lah d china? Kempang ati
(c0me visit me too)

me : aok aok..lak ku ngagak semua negara kedong ku kaya gilak
(ok, why not but like i said, if the time is right and money in pocket)

*jalan pey depan departure hall*

Me :sekda ole2 k aku ka?
(any goodbye gift?)

nigerian : bodo..mek org nk blt kau lah ptt berik.
(oh, i didnt buy anythg for u, didnt know will run into u today)

china & indonesian : aku pun (me too)

me :oh sekpalah.....*smbl mlah muka sedih*
(nevermind, haha im just joking)

Surprisingly, the china guy open his backpack and put the phone on my hand.

me : aieh..apa tok?
(aie...whats this?)

china : bodo, sik kalak nga henpon ka?
(stupid, that's handphone, never seen one?)

me : aieh apahal tok?
(whats this for?)

china: ko muka sik malu mtk hadiah tek nak.. (its a gift for u, nothing else from me, if i know gonna run into u today, i will buy something better)

me: tp tk kau pun bha
(but its yours...)

china : yah...dh org merik sikmaok...jd hakmilik kau ya. Mok mok sik sik??
(now its yours. Its not working in china also. I taught of just bringing it back and display, but.. I give it to u instead, hope u like it )

Me : aieh aieh maok! Ugi sikmok dow! Makseh ngek!
(aie..u sure? I guess... Thanks)

china : aieh..byk soal, amik ku blt lak...
(yes im sure.. Ur welcome)

*and they all flying*


the end

P/s jgnlah dicayak translation ya.. Terpulang ngn individu, part melayu sarawak ka part romputeh nk dcayak.. Hehe

adios...sampai berjumpa lagi

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

more new stuff



source picture is from google...


but... i have this phone.. as a gift *wink*
so far so good, easy to handle, wifi, 3g, just that the camera is not as like my previous phone, but anyway of course i appreciate this phone much!! its from u guys~~ my beloved frens...

thank you my fren, wat ssh2 jerr... hehehe nak lagi ~!!

gtg... wanna test it!!

what do u think ?

Monday, August 24, 2009

new stuff

full view

upclose view (since ada certain org sik tauk pa menda tok) hehehehe....
dh d upclose bok nampak kan corak2 nya... cute aieh...

more prettier in person (the purse of course)


a lil gift from my xoxo

cute hoh ?



thanks dear :D


*edited*

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Eeeekkk...

Erm... today is the 1st day of ramadhan, and im sure all of u were all aware of that. And since ive read so many blogs mostly all about fasting, ramadhan, puasa (all the same thing)... I was thinking, shud i do the same?

Hhehee... apa2 pun, to all my dear friends and bloggers.. happy fasting on the 1st day of ramadhan.. Tokrg g terawih sik malam tok? Marek da g terawih sik? Boh lepah rah stall sutong jak.. Hehehehhe....

Whats d planning for today? Yalah, tokkan dh posa, ujong mgu cmtk byasa org kua2 ilek2 mst g makan nak.. Tok dh posa tok nepat nk makan gk? Apalah dplh tokrang ritok?

Dhya.. Ptg tok tkrg makan apa? I have no special things that i wanna eat for today.. Since .. Mgkn blm mjejakkan kaki ke bazar ramadhan kot...
Byasa time posa tok, aku g bjual p taun tok sekda.. Coz of keja... Tp mgkn akan nulong waklah ptg2 ujong mgu tok semadi sekda plah papa nak?

Pagi tdk sahur ngn nasik sikit + pusuk goreng kicap...

Simple but yet one of my fav... Sik ssh kan? Hehehhe... Bah.. I have to go now and start to plan what to do today...

Mgkn ke bazar lak ptg? U guys?
See u there :D

Thursday, August 20, 2009

saya suka... saya suka...

hari ini saya berasa sungguh asak ati .. kenapa? sebab saya ada hadiah daripada parent saya... parent saya baru balik dari honeymoon.. ndak alah2 hanimun...
dipotongkan cerita, mereka telah membeli sedikit hadiah untuk saya..

saya suka.. suka sangat sangap... erk...

sebab itulah saya asak ati...

tokrang tek ?






pendek kata... saya suka Twilight... books and movies.. both of them.. saya tak sabar nak ngu cita twiligt baru kua .. ujong taun ini semestinya NEW MOON.

saya suka.. saya suka.. saya terlebih suka suda...

saya suka saya betul betul suka.. saya mahu membaca tp saya masih banyak keja....

tapi tidak apa... balik nanti saya baca, satu muka surat satu hari pun ok.. tapi sikda fil... ahhhsss
sekpat padah cmya..

bos!! delay lok anta keja ow.. mek baca buku lok.. maksehh.....


FIRST TO GO



Twilight...
Kalau saya tidak kerja, satu hari boleh habis baca....
tapi saya kerja... terpaksalah saya delay2 baca..
tapi tidak apa...
yang penting..



SAYA SUKA!!

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

sambongan...


tok adalah anak guru ku.. kecik comel cerdit ... kejawak upa bersilat





gmbr2 d dbah tok suma gmbr2 time g pantey ya tp sik pat turun pantey.. so main atas ya jaklah ...







asak ati nangga gambar dikpun

selamat~ hari raya~ ........................................... eh?

salam kawan-kawan,

sik lamak gk bulan posa ow... sik lamak gk kita posa, sik lamak gik kita sik leh makan siang ari, sik lamak gk tkrg sik bleh menom siang ari, sik lamak gk.. raya nak ? kehkehekh
bah, memandangkan bulan posa sik lamak gk, nk cerita lok pengalaman bulan posa taun ya tek (2008)...
perbezaan bulan posa taun ya ngn taun tok memang ketaranya berlainan sekali lah ow.. sekali jak.. sik boh nak banyak kali..

bulan posa taun ya tek, aku berjual nulong mak kwan ku bejual.. nun d demak, of koz la panggang memanggang. p ku jadi cashier jaklah ow. everyday dari start posa smpylah 2 ari gk nak raya bok stop. ne nak ngemas umah pa ndah gk. posa taun ya teklah ku sik sekda lalu bokak posa ngn family koh. tedah nga aku n family T_T sorry mak apak ow... posa taun tok mek ganti balit..
yalah. ne nak gago sungkey d umah.. tengah2 bejual ya.. smpy time org bukak posa.. ne pat nak balit gk.. 2 ari ya jaklah ada..

macam byasa, bulan posa jual panggang2, manok panggang, satay panggang, ikan panggang... mun da sayo pat d panggang pun leh juak...
mun ari2 byasa macam tok.. satay panggang jak.. sekda manok etc etc...
oh sik lupak juak kueh mueh...
ari2lah mek org semember sungkey sama bejual sama...

dalam kol 2 cmya dah turun, kdg2 turun awal gklah dlm kol 1 ka... pegi demak, bekemas barang lok, kemas dak meja, bukak kanopi mun ari ujan, nyedia arang, tmpt manggang, mungkus sambal, peto, pelastik suma sedia dan apa2 jaklah yg perlu ow... mun dah start org bebeli ya... sorry lah, nak megang hp pun sekda masa.... kedak semut jak org dtg..
yalah maklom ... malas nak masak kali daktok ow ? hehehe.. sekpa.. rejeki k mek org lah ya

tapi taun tok (2009).. sekpatlah ku nk join sidak manggang... ku dah keja.. opis hour... balit awal pun, sik sempat juak, sekdalah extra income ku bulan posa tok, bulan posa taun ya tek.. alhamdulillah.. blehlah shopping sik berapa sakan.. hehehehe

tp pengalaman ya nang besh eyhs.. mun dapat mok ku mintak cuti sebulan tok, tp takut juak kenak rembat bos kelak ow... hehe


and tiap kali posa tok mesti dkaitkan ngan sutong tutok oww... pahal ka ? macam dah tradisi jak, tiap2 bulan posa mulalah org bukak stall depan umah dikpun, umah org, depan lorong, tepi jeraya... sine2lah..
dan sik terkecualilah kawan aku... sidak da juak mukak stall time tok... ya rah pumahan sia ehs.. rah kinik ibukota sia.. mun da nga rami2 org bujang sia... nyalah ya ....
beli oww.... hehee pomot kejap jak sik lamak..

bah... mupok lok.. nyambong molah drawing ngn report tok lok.. biuk dah nga report tok jak2...

salam2...

selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan sik lamak gk oww...

senyum2 selalu dan selamat beramal ~

jaga kesihatan oww...

:D :D :D :D :D

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Weekend xtvt'S

last weekend update, on Saturday, im having lunch with my parents and siblings at Pandan Delight BDC. never been there, it was my 1st time and from my opinion, the food wasnt bad at all. masakan thailand bah kan.. the butterprawn that they serve were slightly different from the one that i used to eat at Top Spot or Buntal but its nice and definitely delicious.. different way of cooking and different taste too.. what else did i eat there?
erm.. im not sure myself what is the name of the food, coz when i arrived at the restaurant, the food already been served and my family already start eating, nang sikpat ngu agiklah sidak tok.. eheh p sekpalah, ada reason sbnrnya aku aher..

fyi.. im coming a little bit late as i have to issue something to the contractor 1st. all i know is i eat some pineapple rice, sweet and sour fish (yg seriously nampak macam ikan masin, like told by my brother).. i dunno what kind of fish, but my parents said that is a white fish... and i was just like .. wat? nevermind... just eat it.

then, my mother told me it was my brother's birthday that day. my older brother.. opss.. how could i forget? no wonder my parents invited us all to have lunch at the fancy restaurant.. (HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO! where's my present? ^_^) its just a little present from my parent to my brother (and to us cause we all eat....hehe) and having family time since we rarely see each other, even for eating bfast, lunch dinner etc or hanging out.. thanks mom.. thanks dad...

later that evening after having lunch, i went to my friends ice cream shop, rah perumahan sia ehs.. rah dewan ya.. to pay her the canopy that we used on Friday night. oh yes, i forgot to mention here that on friday night, we were having 'kenduri arwah' for my late grandpa... i miss him.. thanks to all my friends that come that day and help out. and also eat all u can .. heheheh

bebalit ngn cta ari sabtu ya tek, after having lunch and pay the canopy, me and xoxo straightly go to serpan, but this week, we didnt sleep there. malas sbnrnya asa nak sleep over minggu tok, even this is the las weekend coz the next weekend we all will start fasting right? so, sekdalah training silat lah for sidaknya.. why do we still go there even when we will not spending the night there? such a waste of time huh ?
not really.. the reason why we wanna go there actually is there is this one event at kpg serpan called ' Jom berambeh'.. and actually i want to see and captured the picture of our apprentice (^_^) the little kids age 7 till adult around 30+ tp cuma dak kecik2 dak kiut miut jaklah yg molah persembahan silat for the opening ceremony untuk menyambut ketibaan YB Karim. campo2 dah bahasa ku tok ehs.. sorry ow mun ktk org angol... hehehe tp yg sedeyh nya tek, dengan semangat berkobar nak pergi serpan and merik semangat ngn sidak ya.. i arrived there not in time.. duh... late around 10mins.. they already performed and i was like >.< (no words to describe) frust adalah juak..

seriously i really wanna see their hardwork, sebab before tok sidak hanya praktis dlm dewan jak and sik pernah bermain d depan org rami. it was their 1st time and im not there to witness and support them.... T_T nevermind. maybe next time.. but i was touch actually, by a few of them.. like :

child 1 : kak, kenak ktk aher gilak dtg? kmk org dah abis main tek

child2 : kak.. aie.. adanya duhal, ktk ada tga mek main sik tek ? kacak sik ? boleh sik ?

child3 : kak, pahal ktk duak abg dtg aher? eh ktk ada kmk org main sik tek ? kenak ktk sik main juak tek kak ? abg tut ngn abg tet main juak tek ..

child4 : kak! lmk sik tga ktk.. phl ktk lmk sik dtg ngaja gk ?

child5 : kak... lanja lok~




well, maybe that child5 ya ngegeh ikit.. hehe e but somehow, i miss them all actually. lak dah stat posa lak neyda mek org tening gk.. neyda g serpan gk.. unless mun saja2 jak.. tp lambatlah.. macam2lah event d plah org d cya ria. ada pertandingan masak. ada ngubah kraftangan, kreatif2 alu jak .. sikda gmbr ehs.. lupak mbak kemre time jalan2 ya tek..

dahya petang ikit, mek org nk g pantey, tp sik tauk sine pantey, adalah tersesat kejap, just look at the pic ok ?


sungguh kecik jalan nak ke pantey ya koh.. 1st time juak ke ctok

sebuah kereta jak dpt masok, megin jak mun da keta dr arah bertentangan. sine nak tuju mek org ? tejun parit ka tejun laut ? kerek ya parit kanan ya laut.. pileh2..

smpy juak rh ujong dunia tok tek, tp aeknya kering

jaoh wo aek nya kering, nak jalan pun ari dah aher gilak dah. ank cikgu mek org padah, salah timing mek org nk g pantey ya

tp sekpalah, mek org nga org amik ambal jak.. lamak sik makan ambal ehs...

time2 tok dak makcik2 bok kak balit dari ngambik ambal, da cina ngu atas ya meli ambal2 d amik sidak tek ...

tok bok nama kais pagi makan pagi.. kais petang makan petang.. bak kata makcik ya, mun nya sik turun ncarik ambal, sekda duit masok k beli makanan k anak2nya.. k skolah gk..

*terpk, betapa bertuah nya aku ow... sik mewah.. tp senanglah sikit... gk apat men tenet*

antara memberku yg pergi sama ria ... tok posing boyband namanya :D

keberolahan sidak tok sikpat nak d padah gk dah .. boys will always be boys >.<


kelaklah nyambong gik ow.. dlm next entri with more pictures.. bos dah nunggah dah ya.. daa.. taraa... titi... tutuuuu~~~~

Friday, August 14, 2009

erm erm .... pa tok ?

movies list.... erm.. aku dh tga G.I Joe ria.. boleh tahan.. grafik kacak, jalan cita pun sik membosankan.... kira sik rugilah mun nangga, mun cta2 cmtok mmg ku ska nga wayang, grafik and soundsystem nya lebeyh bez~ hahaha...
ok dah...



next tok bukan movie lam wayang or pa ndah tp mmg one of Japan series yang bez...
Hanazakari no Kimitachi e... penah dgr sik ? or shortform nya Hanakimi. cita tok ng bez, byasalah mun dah Japan or Korean movie tok, jalan cta nya ne da yg sik bez.. biarpun ada part yg sedeyh ... yg bodoh amat lagiklah byk.. part2 yg lucu gk.. erm.. tp nang bez lah ehss... ssh nk padah, syg jak ada one or two series of my collection ya corrupted, sekpat d tga, paksa skip... tp sekpalah... at least, bez.. hahah bapa banyak bez dah i mention dalam tok ?


series tok sbnrnya mengisahkan pasal one gurl tok yg menyamar jadi laki and masok skurah berasrama lelaki bcoz one of this guy~... not bcoz of love... well,at least, not yet, and thats not the main reason.. it is becoz, this oneguy tok penah nulong this gurl tok tek in an attack yg akhirnya telah mencederakan nya mpun yg telah menyebabkan nya sekpat melompat gk.. eh? melompat?

well this guy is an athlete, atlit lompat tgilah tek, kerana nya nulong mpuan tok tek daripasa sekumpulan samseng, nya d cederakanlah.. then start from that, nya dah sik jadi atlit gk biapun ya nang passion nya. so mpuan tok beysalah rasa bersalah, nya kira nak mujok lah laki tok tek soh mula melompat gk, tp laki tok byasalah STUBBORN + EGO.. bukan semua laki ng cmya ka ?
hehe ok2... jalan cerita nya nang menarik .. tga gambar rami2 miak kelas sidak atas nun ... ne sorang mpuan ya ? and dalam cerita tok ada macam2 watak.. ada watak gay, watak aauwww.... lawak ehss..... smpykan ada sorang clazmate nya tok bleh kata nya pandey fall in love with a guy (kononnya tek) tp nya sik tauk guy ya sbnrnya mmg mpuan. tedah nya lok, smpy nya accept yg nya gay sbnrnya... heheheh.....
ending nya ? tanggalah dikpun .... mun d cita sik bez.. sekda fil... tga bok bez.. dgn aksi2 sidak gk...

ermm....
next movie ? wait yachh..... later i find other movies again ... daaaaaaaa~~ mmuahhsss







Hanazakari no Kimitachi e @ Hanakimi

nk ngerepak jap leh x?

1st of all, mcm yg tokrang tauk nak, time tok tgh dgempar gembur gempak gempitak impak maksima dengan 1 Malaysia. many people approach me and asked me, are u proud to be Malaysian? Of course i am.. just i am not that proud of how people tend to judge others by their appearance etc. ok. stop.. before i proceed more..
then, ada juak org nanyak, bangga sik ko jadi org sarawak ? and i was like .... daaa? OF COURSE! sapa sik ? mun nk d ekot lah nak, 1 malaysia tok dh lamak dah d amalkan d sarawak. mmglah kempen ya lebeyh besar d smnnjg, and IT should be! know why ? coz aku rasa sidak nun sik lah 1 malaysia gilak lah dari dolok. (not everyone) just some certain people jak. yalah, mun dah nangga nok tang bangsa lain2 ya terus lah nak pandang serong terus nk pok pet pok pet pok pet.. duh..
ne tek satu negara berbilang bangsa ? memang.. tp, tokrang asa tokrang dah 1 malaysia ka bila still judge people mcm ya ? pride and prejudice.. come on people ?
ne tek bersatu ? tp malaysia nektok dah pandey polah pemberontakan sia sitok ? cmne ya ? sikkan nak jadi kedak d negara org nun juak ? ne nak jadi 1 malaysia mcm ya ?
eee.. bukan ku bencik sidak tok tp... ishkk.. ssh la nak describe feeling ya .. cmne tok ow?
amik kata lah time ku study dolok , in one room ya, mcm2 bangsa jak and dari lain2 tempat@kawasan, but still we can accept and respect each other.
tp, bak kata kawan ku lah, d satu tmpt nya study nektok, dmana aku sik penah da pengalaman d cya, manusia berpuak2... puak A ngn A jak.. B ngn B jak. adoh... siyesly, do we get any further with that ?
mmglah kita mok nulong bangsa kita mpun nak ? ya aku sik medow... kehkehkehe... tp yalah tek, aku maseh syg ngn tanah tumpah air ku tok .. aku masih mok aman.. masih mok jalan2 sia sitok sekda pelu bodigad, sekda pelu takut2 ada org mbak senapang lam begpack, mbak grenade lam henbeg. mbak caku lam sling bag.. yahh......
tokrang mok idup cmya?


aku sik mok ..... wuwuwuwuwu... ku msh syg tokrang bha...


takat tok jaklah oww...

p/s sbnrnya post tok pjg koh.. tp d edit gk oleh kawan2 ku d mana mereka merasakan bahasaku yg sungguh tidak sopan utk d baca plus isu2 yg sungguh tidak ptt ku sentuh... haish.. lihatlah malaysia... adab supan maseh ada.. supan ka ? ukan sopan oww ?

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Cosvention Pt2












movie and a little of this... a little of that...

today as i was watching this one movie, it makes me think. seriously thinking about my life, i never thought of it actually. although it something that will happen to any of us, sooner or later. happen to whoever really important in our life.have you guys watch P/s I Love You?

its a romantic movie. u can say im all little gloomy hearty here and there today, but its in everyone's heart, just in a matter if they allowed others to see or if others can see through the way they show it ?

its a movie about two loving couple who completed each other. before they could really happily and satisfying each other, the man died. and yet even with all the smiley face and laughter around her siblings, the wife is still human. still soft at heart. and still missing his present in her life. still missing him. she wont go out or others, until one day, her mom and her friends would like to throw a surprise party for her 30th bday party. and guess what? thats not the only surprise she get that day. she also received present from her beloved one. Her dead husband. apparently, in some sort of ways, the husband know that he's going to die and have left some sort of present for her. he give her birthday cake with a recorder. and through that, he ask her to follow every little thing he said. there will be letters all week that she must follow. he's not actually asked her to not to forget him. but actually he's teaching her to let him go and move on with her life. its a very sweet story. You guys should see it for urself if u wanna know what i mean. it cant be describe in words as i am not good to prescribe beautiful and even nice word to read.

This movie reminds me about a lot of things.

first of all, my family. My mummy and daddy to be exact. if one day i woke up and knowing that i will not seeing them anymore? its frightening me for just thinking about it. i know... the time will come. sooner.. or later, but i was thinking. can i handle it ? can i face the truth ? can i live the life just the same?

wake every morning to see my mum and dad, go to work, eat with them, hang out with them.. what if one day i woke up and there goes nothing (if u know what i mean)?

mummy, daddy... as a child, sorry has been the toughest word for me to said. sorry for being rude. sorry for being clumsy. sorry for not being there when u need me. sorry for everything that im not suppose to done but i still do it. sorry for not being the best child. sorry for not having things in ur way. sorry for every words and actions that i make that make u angry, sad or any feelings that can make u think im not the best.

i can thank you guys for everything. for giving me birth, for giving me life, for giving me education, for giving me a place to stay, a food to eat, a water to drink, a cloth to wear. i could thank you guys for every single little thing but i don't know if i can make it up for you. i don't know if i can succeed in life. i don't know if i can make you guys happy. i don't know if i can take care of you guys just how much you take care of me or more.. i don't know if i can be good enough to have a child and to educate them just how you educate me. just to think about it make me scared to death. makes me think that im not ready for anything. makes me feel like i wanna be daddy's little girl again. but i cant. time pass by, not waiting for anyone. i need to grow up. i need to face the truth. i need... my family.

Then, I was thinking about my ex, we’re been knowing each other for life, we’ve been friends and then become couples. It’s a long time to spend together. Almost five years, I’ve used of being together with him, seeing him everyday, hearing his voice every morning and night.

Then, something happen that both of us didn’t realize its coming. We’ve been blind by our own feelings that we tend to forget about others. I don’t know what have we that makes people seems jealous just by seeing us. And why do people keep talking bout us behind our back and tend to talk something that not only making us hurt, but people who we love most, our family and friends. Yes people, we always try to avoid these kind of people or sometime we just simply said that one day, when they get tired, they’ll stop talking.

But im afraid that that particular day that they stop talking is the worst day of me and my ex.

I know you and you and you and you been reading my blog all this while, and I hope you happy for what you have reach today. You make my family and his family turn against each other. Whats the point? Its tickle you is it ? its fun to see other people misery and hurt. I still don’t understand and don’t expect me to be. I still talk to you whenever you want and especially when you need my help. I still help you eventhough what you have done. I keep on smiling.

Me and my ex.. we keep on smiling. We’ve been friend, couple and now our friendship is stronger than ever. Thanks to you.

Maybe you just never felt of lose. Losing the fight or losing someone you really care off. One day you will, and when that time come, don’t expect me to say something nice. I will be there to hear your problem. But I wont promise that I’ll help you. You have to help yourself overcome your attitude. After you done with it.. then you wont have to asked me to be there. I will….

For now, just give me time, time to forgive. And time to heal. its easy to forgive but not forget. Remember ?

Its not easy to forgive the things you’ve done. If its only bout me, maybe I can forgive you in a snap. But this time around, you hurt me, him, and especially my family and his.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

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Dear bloggers,
im sorry i cant update my blog for a while right now, as i am not feeling really well since past 3 days. i will miss to update my blog and for sure i miss to read all the bloggers new post later.
Do wish me well, wish me healthy. im scared right now..
how i wish my bestfriend would be with me now... :|
and my family ....
i have so many things to upload, all the cosvention picture, hanging out, new stuff...
so many things so little time...

pls pray for my health too....
thank u bloggers.... i'll see u guys later

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